i miss teaching.

proper teaching – 6 hours straight – 30 kids – 7subjects.

 

i must be crazy. 

i miss making my own materials, i miss homework, i miss working alone, i miss having my own class.

i miss making my own lessons, having them any way i want, not needing to be similar to 4 other classes.

i miss having holidays, having lunch breaks away from the kids, i miss dott time.

i miss running around in a big wide open space, i miss having fitness.

i miss big classrooms, i miss having the smartboard.

i miss lunching and teabreaking in the staff room, i miss the weekly teachers meeting in the staff room too!

 

 

 

i miss teaching. 

Commitment?
Fearful of taking the next step?

Why do I always seem to be retracting 2 steps with every one step forward.

on the 73rd day.

10 weeks of school. – Term one done.

bring on March school holidays.

Holidays 2014

Bkk (april/may)
Bkk/bandung (june?)
Perth (aug)
Korea (oct)
Unknown destination (dec)

I guess… 14 days leave has been planned out.
*excites*

maybe its just suspicion and a hint of jealously.

the closeness is getting a little too freaky for me.

 

movin’ on.

Everyone packin’, rushin’, and leavin’.
Stuck here facing the realities of life and doing my own count down to August.

Wishin’ I have the cash, the leave to hop on the plane alongside with them.

Things are changin’, people are movin’. But I am jus here… stuck in reverse mode.

Onehundredninetythree days.
How long more before I turn insane?

no matter how far i am away, ‘you’ will always be a part of me.

a part that will never be forgotten.

 

of all the laughters, tears, and different emotions shed.

i won’t deny that i don’t miss ‘you’, and never thought of going back.

 

but i guess i  am here now, and i can’t really change this fact.

 

 

 

 

so.. please.. don’t ask me why i did not apply for my PR.

one phrase, one line.

that’s all it would take, (and possibly a ton of money & annual leave)..

to make me want to drop everything buy a ticket, take a plane and fly.

 

its only January.

but i am already thinking of my next get-away.

not really much of the grad/half cell trip to korea….

but more of the solo trippin back to perth.

 

i guess somehow, that my became my comfort zone, a place of refuge and feeling safe.

maybe cos i am stick of politics, uncertainties and tired of playing the waiting game in various areas of my life.

maybe cause i just want to run away and hide. but i know.. heading back now will be doing more harm then good to me. but i guess thats also my way of saying. thats it. i just want to throw in the towel already.

New Year, New beginnings. New season of life. New resolutions for 2014. 

 

so.. this year.. i aim to…..

1) be more adventurous with food. (maybe durians?)

2) eat more greens / fruits

3) morning runs 2-3x a week before work (let’s see how long this will last, or when i will start).

4) stop shortchanging myself.